'And now, my dear, I must really leave you for two or three hours. I have
ever so many letters to write, and my people must think I'm dead by this
time.'
So till tea-time I had poor Mary Quince, with her gushes of simple prattle
and her long fits of vacant silence, for my companion. And such a one, who
can con over by rote the old friendly gossip about the dead, talk about
their ways, and looks, and likings, without much psychologic refinement,
but with a simple admiration and liking that never measured them
critically, but always with faith and love, is in general about as
comfortable a companion as one can find for the common moods of grief.
It is not easy to recall in calm and happy hours the sensations of an acute
sorrow that is past. Nothing, by the merciful ordinance of God, is more
difficult to remember than pain. One or two great agonies of that time I do
remember, and they remain to testify of the rest, and convince me, though I
can see it no more, how terrible all that period was.
Next day was the funeral, that appalling necessity; smuggled away in
whispers, by black familiars, unresisting, the beloved one leaves home,
without a farewell, to darken those doors no more; henceforward to lie
outside, far away, and forsaken, through the drowsy heats of summer,
through days of snow and nights of tempest, without light or warmth,
without a voice near.
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